My Struggles With Writers Block

Hello everybody!

As many of you are probably aware, I have been dealing with the worst creative block when it comes to writing blog posts, and I have experienced so many false starts with my writing, that it has been getting to me a lot.

So, I decided to do something very unique: Write about it! 

I don’t know why, but I feel like if I share it with all of you, maybe it will help me feel better about myself, and maybe I will get to a better place with my writing. 

Here’s something important that you should all know. I like to plan out what I am going to write about before I actually start writing, because I feel that if I know what I am going to write about, the rest will come naturally. Unfortunately, this has not proven to be entirely correct recently, as even though I have planned out what I am going to write about for some recent blog posts, I have either not been satisfied with what I am writing, or I realize that it won’t make a good blog post. 

Here are some examples of this. I have tried more than once to write blog posts about restaurants of Hell’s Kitchen contestants, and go over some of the interesting foods on their menus, but every time I have gotten a good portion of the way into writing it, I have realized that writing essentially the same things over and over again is draining for me, no matter how varied the foods at the different restaurants are. 

Another time, I tried writing about the evolution of comedian Adam Pally on various game shows, but then I realized that there was not much that I could say there, so I just stopped writing about it.

While there probably other times that it has happened, the only other times I can think of off the top of my head are from last week, when I went back and forth on what my next blog post would be, and I ended up starting and then deleting two different ideas for blog posts two times each. 

Since MasterChef is currently on hiatus due to The World Cup, I figured that I would just do write-ups of older episodes, but unfortunately, when I tried writing about it, I found myself unable to choose an episode, and due to the fact that I had already written about MasterChef right before that, I couldn’t find any proper motivation to write about it again so soon afterwards. I tried to start a post twice, but I immediately felt drained as soon as I started writing.

This next one is difficult for me, as it was literally recommended to me by my amazing friend Emily. I tried writing about the Mount Kisco Memorial Pool and Leonard Park, but the amount of information that is readily available about it on the internet is very small, and with how my memory works, I would probably bounce from one thing to the next in what I write, which would result in a very disjointed blog post that is all over the place. So, to my friend Emily, I’m sorry. I really tried writing your suggestion twice, but I just didn’t feel that I could make a good blog post about the pool and the park.

I also took a suggestion from my mom, who said that I could write about upcoming events here in Mount Kisco this summer, but when I saw everything that is coming up, all I saw was a small number of concerts, plus one parade that is not even listed on the internet. I only know it’s going to happen because it has happened every year. In my opinion, that is barely anything that is worth mentioning.

Then, there’s another problem with the fact that I have written about almost everything you can think of. I feel like if I write about certain things more than once, I’m just being lazy and not trying to be creative.

Then, there is another issue of writing about concert venues. I have already written about so many this year, that it doesn’t make sense for me to write about them again with updated shows, because the number of shows that have been announced at all the venues is not that big. And I’m also not sure if I want to write about any of the venues that I haven’t written about, because if there is one thing I have noticed when looking at the calendars for all the venues, it’s that they all have many of the same performers coming up, and there are only so many times I can say the same things over and over again. Seriously, I have three posts right now where I bring up the fact that the upcoming tour with Foreigner and Lynyrd Skynyrd has no original members in either band. 

Now, I am going to give write-ups of old MasterChef or Hell’s Kitchen episodes another try, but there’s another problem right there. I can’t just devote all my writing to that, as it will become way too draining for me. 

I know that suffering from a creative block is nothing unusual for anybody, as almost everybody has gone through it. Even people who are not writers have probably experienced it. But it tends to hit me harder than it really should, because at times, it feels like writing blog posts is how I connect with my friends and family. What I mean is that even if I have not talked to my friends or cousins in weeks, months, or even years, I feel like by sharing my writing with them through social media, I am still communicating with them in some way.

I have also found that writing blog posts brings me a lot of joy, as it lets me explore my creativity in ways that I feel could lead to me coming up with potential jobs. I enjoy talking about upcoming events and nearby places, and doing recaps of The Masked Singer and MasterChef. But then I worry that if I am unable to come up with anything to write about, combined with the fact that I miss so many friends and cousin, then I will find myself asking the question that Billie Eilish asked us all: What Was I Made For?

Yes, I know, I just got very existential, but that’s how much writing means to me, and when I am unable to come up with anything, it makes me feel like I can’t do anything.

As of right now, I am struggling to find any nearby places to write about that I haven’t already written about, and I can’t think of any exciting upcoming events that are worth talking about. I am probably going to do write-ups of older MasterChef episodes, but that can’t be the only thing I write about, because I feel like that will just be draining for me, and with how much I have written about The Masked Singer already, it’s hard for me to come up with posts to make about it, especially when the show is on an extended hiatus until next year.

Yeah, so that’s where I am currently. I do want to do write-ups of older episodes of MasterChef and maybe Hell’s Kitchen, but writing about just those things will be draining for me, and it’s going to be hard for me to come up with anything else at this time. 

I don’t know exactly what I will be writing when I’m not doing recaps, but I do know that I will not be writing about restaurants or concerts any time soon. 

As I briefly said a little while ago, I have been missing my friends and cousins a lot, which is something that I think affects my writing at times, which is not helped when I see how many views my blog posts have, as it’s very rare that any of my blog posts are able to get views in the double digits. Now, I do realize that I do not have a public blog whatsoever, but sometimes when I see these numbers, it makes me think that my own friends and cousins don’t want to see what I have to say. And then, I just keep wondering why I keep writing anyway. 

Now, here’s the thing. I actually started writing this blog post last Sunday, when I was not feeling good at all. I was unable to come up with any places or events to write about, and having two false starts each for two different posts made me think that I could not write about any events or places near me, or do write-ups for old episodes of cooking shows, which told me that I would not be able to to write any of the blog posts that I wanted to write about for the time being, and that I would not have anything to share with any of my friends or family for the foreseeable future.

But after I had written a good portion of this, I decided to give doing a write-up for an old episode of MasterChef another try, and I figured that it would just be an okay way to pass the time until the current season returns. But when I started writing, I realized something. I loved what I was doing! I think I have realized why doing write-ups of episodes of cooking shows is so great for me. It might be because since I have seen all these episodes before already, by going back to them, I can look at them with a certain type of insight that only I as a very observant fan can provide. And by writing about new episodes of MasterChef, I am bringing you all along for the journey that I am going along with the current season. 

In fact, I had such a great time writing about an old episode of MasterChef this week that not only do I want to do it again, I’m even going to start doing write-ups for old episodes of Hell’s Kitchen! Yes, that’s right. I had been on the fence about it for a while, but seeing how I will be doing write-ups for the season in the fall, I feel that doing write-ups for older episodes will be an important part of seeing how I want to write about it.

Now, as for places and events near me. I am still at a point in time where I am unable to think of anything, and I am okay with that. As I already said, I’m going to be taking a break from writing about restaurants, because I have already written about so many, some even more than once, and there are only so many times I can write about the same foods. 

I am also going to be taking a break from writing about concerts at various venues, because as I already said, a lot of these venues have the same shows as each other, and I can only make the same jokes so many times, and for the venues I have talked about this year that have announced new shows since I wrote about them, I don’t feel that it’s enough new shows yet to make up an entire blog post. So, I’m just going to take a break from writing about them, and get back into writing about concerts in a few months, when even more shows have been announced. 

I don’t know how many places or events I will be writing at this time, but I do know that I will be writing about my friend Emily’s prayer and worship event some time in the coming weeks, so you can probably look forward to that.

I am taking a break from writing about The Masked Singer, as the show is currently on an extended hiatus, and there’s only so much I can say about it when it’s not airing, but I will get back into writing about it when we get closer to Season 15. Plus, if production actually does move to New Jersey, I will be sharing with you all a write-up that will be unlike anything I have ever written!

So for the time being, I will be focusing my energy on doing write-ups of Hell’s Kitchen and MasterChef, and maybe events or places if the inspiration strikes me. 

Now, here’s the interesting thing. As I was writing this, I gave up at a certain point, and decided to get into write-ups of old MasterChef episodes, and I figured I would leave this blog post unfinished, and never post it. But as I shared this information on Instagram, my amazing friend Emily told me that she would love to read this. So, after seeing her say that, I felt the motivation to finish it. So, Emily, thank you for encouraging me to continue this blog post. 

I’m sorry if this blog post seems disjointed or all over the place, but that’s just how my brain worked for this post. I hope you all enjoyed what I had to say. 

So yes, that’s everything you can expect from me for the time being. I know that there will still be times where my writers block gets bad, but I know that there are still people who care about what I have written, and like our good friend Andy Grammer says, I just have to keep my head up.